Annalisa Toole

Brigham City is where I lived when I was a single mom with two babies. I was 22 years old, looking for God, and went back to the LDS Church I was raised in (I quit church at 14). It was great! I prayed to God every night to forgive my sins (sex without marriage, out of wedlock babies, drugs, etc.) and spent hours in tears almost nightly, as instructed by my bishop. I wasn't allowed sacrament; I was on suspension until I was forgiven by God.

After three months, in the middle of the night, praying my heart out, tears streaming down my cheeks for the sins I had committed and my longing for my God's love and forgiveness, a sudden peace overcame me, and almost paralyzed me. God whispered "Oh Anna. You were forgiven long ago!" I broke into a laughter that soothed my heart. He loved me always! So... I went to my bishop and told him I was ready to take sacrament and I believe God had forgiven me. He told me to just keep praying, and said I wasn't ready yet. I insisted that sacrament is really important to me and I believed I was ready. He said it usually takes many more months and to just be patient. I walked out and never returned.

If these men were going to keep me from my God, then it couldn't be true. They obviously hadn't been talking to the same God I knew or He would have told them I was forgiven.

Shortly after, all my newfound Mormon “friends” shunned me. Not a hello, please come back to church, not a smile or a wave. Just glares and hatred. Way to be like Jesus guys! It's okay; it was meant to be. I found a good church when I moved to Colorado that taught me the true love of Christ.

Annalisa Toole
Annalisa2010@live.com.au


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ali says... (Reply)
"im SO sorry to hear that your friends shunned you...obviously they werent true friends then. its sad that the church separates family by making the believers still in the church shun the person who left. i dont think God would ask you to stop and cut ties to your father and mother...he said "honor they father and mother". i hope you were able to get your name removed from the church... they will follow you and send missionaries to your new home to try to get you to come back. im speaking from experience! also you need to do it with your children too if they were baptized in the church or they will try to come after your kids too." (7/31/19)